So I have decided to start doing this new "fad" that people are starting to do... Ok well they started doing years ago. I really am just a person who has no backbone and just does what everyone else is doing to feel cool... Man, wouldn't that be awesome if that were the truth? haha. But on a serious note I guess, I'll explain my reasoning for this blog. I decided that I wanted to start writing a blog because, I love writing. It most definitely is a passion of mine, and throughout the last couple of weeks I have been journaling on and off, and have really rediscovered my love and passion for putting my thoughts, feelings, and emotions into words. Don't worry this blog will not be substitute for a journal. I will not be posting boring crap like, Today I woke up at cereal, then took a shower, and then I did home and then.... and on and on and on with the boring everyday life stuff. No, that is not what I will be writing. Yes, I will be writing and you will hear about activities in my life, but not every post everyday being a description of my day in full detail. I am just going to try and look at life in a new light. Life is an amazing adventure that we all journey down, and the more and more I get older the more and more I realize so many people live their lives in their heads and do not fully engage in life. I fall victim to this so often. So many times, I just stay in my comfort. Stay where I know there will be no risk, or no strain on me. And honestly, thats not why I feel I'm here on this earth.
I am here to live. I am here to take risk, and to create memories, and through all of this and life, I am here to grow closer and closer to this big guy we sometimes call, God. He created us and every wonderful thing around us, and He wants us to live outside of our heads. He wants us not to just sit and think up fantasies instead of living. He wants us to think up realistic fantasies and work towards them, not just say it and never pursue it. Anyone who has ever met me, has probably sometime in my life heard me come up with some idea I had that I would like to do, yet I have never done it. I want to change that. I want to pursue these elaborate events that I create in my head. I want to pursue life. I do not want to be on my death bed and sit there and think, wow, I spent my life with my head in the clouds dreaming of a life I never lived. I want to say, wow I had a good run, my life was full of purpose and full of passionate times with the people I love, times where I went out on a limb and actually did what I knew I should do, but was afraid to. (any english students reading this, yes I realize I used the word "I" a million times in that paragraph. haha)
Recently I read the book, "Walking a Million Miles in a Thousand Years," by Donald Miller. This book has totally shaken my perception on life. In the book Donald Miller goes on to say, life is a story. We are all a tale, a piece of literature. So just like all good literature, make your story worth the read. Fill your story with memories, live your life to the fullest. I highly recommend this book, like I said before, this book truly has just shaped my process of thinking now. I really look back now and am amazed at what reading that book just 4 months ago has done for me now. I am about to embark on the next chapters of my life and truthfully, I have no plan. I have no set future, no set school, no set location. Everything is up in the air. Am I scared? Yeah, terrified at first thought. But I realize more and more everyday, why should I worry when I am in God's Hands? He's going to lead me where I need to go, and I need to learn to follow, no matter how hard that is. Now I say that, and I have to admit, I have not even come close to being able to fully act out those words, but I am working on it more everyday.
The last thing I want to say to the people who will be reading these posts over the next few months is this. I do not want to looked at like an internet christian. I am not going to be posting a blog that is just christian posts everyday. Not that there is anything wrong with people who do that, in fact I commend those who do, but thats not for me. I want to yes incorporate my faith into my writings, just as much as my faith is incorporated into my life, but I guess what I am saying is, do not expect the same thing with every post. One day I may write on the beauty of God's creations, such as the beach, or the sky, or my favorite the stars. Yet, one day I may write on changing a babies diaper. haha. I am not going to somehow try to find the God in feces. Although I think the miracles of digestion and filtration are divine, I am not going to be like, "poopy diapers are like sin guys. They just smell and are evil." haha I am just going to be honest and hopefully blunt, like I always am. haha.
My goal in writing this blog is to 1) Provide something for someone to read to see insight into my life if they please 2) I hope this blog helps to hold me accountable for my actions and how I live my life and 3) honestly to keep me writing. As I said before writing is a passion of mine and I don't want to just stop writing again... I realize those goals sound so selfish, but they are true.
So now you know the reason for the madness. You know why Tanner Pemelton for some reason is on the "internet," or whatever those young folks call it now-a-days. Now you know in short I am a young man with many motivations and has been blessed with so many things. I am so sick of living inside of my head, so now I write down my thoughts. You will now know the thoughts that pass through Tanner Pemelton's mind. (you like that? I incorporated the title. haha)